Huyum- so in love that you have lost all reasons

                                

“What have you decided – to stay or leave?”he asked me angrily hitting his hand to the desk right there. I would love to stay but I have to leave, I said. He walked away in anger slamming the door. I thought he would come back within an hour or two, but he didn’t. I stayed back for the night in his room for the night waiting for him to come back. He is not going to come back, I said to myself. I got up to leave and took a look at the clock, it was 5 in the morning. I gathered all my stuff and left by taking  a cab to the nearest bus stand. I reached home by 10’o clock. I spent all 3 months waiting for him to come back. Since I could find no sign, I had a thought of moving on.

After a while, I went out to breathe some fresh air. On my way, I met Tara, my best friend. At the very first sight, she came running towards me. She was so happy to meet me after a long time. “ how are you doing?” she asked. Yeah, doing good! I said in a low voice. “is everything alright?” she asked. And I had nothing to say. I was quiet for complete an hour. Then she finally pleased me to not to kill her with my silence. But still I stayed calm. After a while, “speak something dammit!” she yelled. All of a sudden I no longer had the strength to control  my tears. They rolled down just as the way the heavy rain drops fall. Tara hugged me tightly for a while. Speak out whatever it is , she said. I am right here with you. And then I broke my silence, I accept there were many a times where I was wrong but I never walk out just the way he does all the time. I know he loves me but not at the cost of his self respect. I understand that totally. I was okay with that too. But the way he walks out all the time instead of fixing the problem was breaking me. I have always told him I do not dare enough to fight for us and he said I can fight for us, do not worry. That promise of his gave me peace. I trusted his words. And when things were really getting serious, I asked him to meet my parents. He refused and said “ if you really wanna be with me, convince your parents. I was left speechless. That was the first time I left for a few days. I was pretty much surprised for not hearing from him. I called him and asked “ is it really done between us?” you were the one who walked away, he said. Then I told him I cannot convince my parents. We had a bad fight and he left me. And it has been 93 days since I have heard from him and thinking that hurts terribly.” Tara had no words to pacify me. All she could say was everything happens for a reason and lets hope this happened for both of yours better future. “ don’t chase behind the people who will never know the value of having you in their life” she advised me. We told each other goodbye as Tara had to attend an important call.

My way back, all the happy moments with him flashed at once which literally brought a broad smile on my face after a long time. But the worst part is I told him my biggest fear and he did it in a perfect way. I just realised that if the memories with him can make me so happy, just couldn’t imagine of the happiness of being with him. Leaving him was never my choice so I decided to convince my parents for us no matter what and then finally I dropped him a message “I’ll be back soon babzz!”

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Vineetha G A